Barry!

i love you and im sorry for being a dick! your the one that i want the one that i need! you really are <33 your my life babyyy i love you so much and i would do anything i care about you more then i care about my own life! and i really would take a bulliet for you! i would die for you i really honestly would, but i really need you to tell me what i can do better! and dont say “your perfect” or “i cant think of anything right now” if you cant think then try harderrr please! i want to be with you for the rest of my life and i care about you so much kayla! i love everything you do and i love everything about you and i think that we have been fighting to much and we need to stop! what im about to say isnt a guilt trip its how i feel… i feel that most of our arguments are caused by me! and im gonna stop starting arguments! not that i do it on purposee! if i didnt have you in my life i dont know what i would be doin or where i would be! your the only reason i feel like living right now, if you werent in my life right now i would probably have committed suicide! really i prooly would have! because your in my life right now, i have someone to talk to,sing to,cry on,laugh with and love! ive found love, i never thought i would find love! but i did and its all coz of you, if you wouldnt have talked to me i would never be here right now coz im to shy to talk to girls in person! when i first saw you i thought you were the most beautifull girl in the whole world and that you had the most prettiest eyes ever and the most contagious smileeee! im crying right nowww! when you smiled and waved at me my stomach dropeed and i got butterflies from hell! i didnt know what to do! so i just raised my hand back, but what you didnt know is when you smiled and waved that simple jesture made me the most happies young boy in the world! then when i finally made you my girlfriend i wasnt sure how to act around you or what to say! and i was a complete asshole! i just love you so muchhh! then this year when i got that note saying “i hope we could date again” you dont even know how happy that made me! i wanted you back so baddd and to be honest i tried to find a girl to get over you but everytime i found a girl i just couldnt do it, coz i thought of you! if i ever lost you my life would go south! i swear to god if i dont get to marry you i wont marry ever! your the only girl i want to be with forever and ever! and i will do anything to make sure that happens! your constantly on my mind i think about you 24/7. i want to just cuddle with you all day and when i kiss you its just as special and magical as the verry first one! yeah i remember it it was in the slide thing at aroyyo grande park i was laying on you and we kissed upside down, then i got up and kissed you again! i was so happy to have a girlfriend!!! i hadnt had that many girlfriends before you, i was to shy and kinda a looser. and when i met a girl that didnt care that i was shy,not the smartest,short,only made out once, never held hands before! yeah i was really happy, i told all of my friends and family members that i found a girl and that she is really special to my heart! you are my lifeeee, my world and my universe! and when we exchanged v-cards, that was so special to my heartttt! ive been crying this wholeee blogg! i dont have the best life, but i do have the best girlfriendd! the most amazing person that i have ever met <3 i really would do anything for you, just name it and i will do it! ive never met a girl that i could be myself around! i feel so empty when your not around! your the other half to my heart! your the froot to my loop! i love how we write eachother note and how we keep them in binders, i love how we have multiple songs! :) i love you so much and you can tell me anything and i know that i can tell you everything too, i I also want you to know that you can tell me how you feel and if im making you mad or sad or anything! and i promise to try my hardest to understand talk (not argue) with you about it! i love you soooooooo much!